Ok… I know its been quite some time since I’ve written.. but I just had to share because…. God is so awesome!!!
Lastnight I had a dream I was at a club with friends.. trying my hardest to fit in. I had on clothes I wouldn’t normally wear (well not anymore lol) and felt so out of place! I really didnt think much of the dream and forgot all about it as I got ready for the day. So later at work…I was put in an Instant Message thread, unknowingly to a colleague I’ve never met before. While chatting about a work related issue, she referred to me as a “STRANGE BIRD”. I initially thought it was hilarious and responded by typing in a laughing emoticon. She quickly called to apologize and stated that what she should have said is that…. I am “QUIRKY”. She went on to to say .. “I mean you’ve gotten that before right, that you’re quirky?”
It started to bother me a little bit…how was it possible, that a woman I’ve had very little interaction with, could gather that I was strange and quirky. Then the HOLY SPIRIT brought into my rememberance my dream and reminded me that, His people are called to be set apart.
Its been 2 and half years since I became a new creation in Christ. When my spirtual eyes were opened.. I didnt want any parts of “NORMAL”! I didn’t care about having friends, socializing, dating, having what the world calls fun.. I just wanted God! Lately I’ve been trying to be “normal”. I’ve been wanting to get out and hang, even tried to date..but any attempt I’ve had at being normal, has been an EPIC fail. (For example: I got friend zoned by a fellow believer because I was abstinent 😂)
So thankful for the gift of the Holy Spirit! Today I was reminded that God didn’t design me to be “Normal”!! I’ve never “fit in”…..the people closest to me even think I’m weird. I feel out of place in most of my surroundings and social situations ..but God’s Word tells us that we as believers.. as His Chosen people .. we are “PECULIAR” (1 Peter 2:9).
I know first hand the struggles of being IN this world BUT not of it. We will get tempted left and right, so if you are struggling with wanting to be normal, or being persecuted because you are chosen by GOD to be consecrated.. just know you are bringing honor to God by being obedient. Know that you are FEARFULLY and WONDERFULLY made in HIS IMAGE! We should never try to fit into the world or fit into anyones image of who they think we should be.
Be exactly who God created you to be, quirky, strange, peculiar and all 😉. I am now delighting in the fact that I am a STRANGE BIRD. And that others recognize the Dove (Holy Spirit) that resides in me as well.